what if?

I just finished watching the movie Letters to Juliet. The beginning, in my opinion, is somewhat rocky. However if you continue to watch it, it will definitely become a tear jerker! If you've seen this movie, then you'll follow where I'm going with this quote.



"What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? "

All of a sudden I'm asking myself the question "what if?" in reference to J. All along we've been friends yet all along I've wanted to be with him. I've never expressed my feelings towards him to him. So now my question is this, what if? What if I were to tell J how I really feel? With me being a hopeless romantic I want to say that he'll have the biggest smile on his face in the world and tell me he's wanted to tell me the same all along. However, realistically I can only see him and our friendship grow distant and isolated. What if I never told him? Is it possible that what could have been could never be? Do I really want to take the chance on risking everything?

I've talked to a select few about the situation yet everyone says the same thing, tell him. Why can it not be that easy? I'm in a complete battle with myself. Do I risk losing a friendship because he doesn't feel the same? Would I rather keep him as my friend because I rather cherish having him in my life then not having him at all? Do I keep quiet, continue to be just a friend, and always have that constant reminder of what will never be? Honestly, if I were to tell him how I felt only to find out the he doesn't feel the same I don't know if I could still be his friend. I think the sharp end of the knife would cut too deep and too fast for me to ever be able to communicate with him the same. Yet what if he's fighting in the same battle? What if he feels for me yet is too nervous to say anything? J is a pretty shy guy when it comes to stuff like this.

I've shed so many tears over this whole matter that I should probably buy stock in some Puffs Plus. I don't want to battle this anymore. My patience is wearing thin. I just want him to confess his love for me tell me how he really feels or at least show some sort of clear (like, windexed windows clear) sign of whether or not he's at least into me.

Relationships are never easy. Friendships, romance, and even family... none of them come easy. However, this time I really wish God would lay out a blue print for me and help a clueless, hopeless romantic girl out.

Let's pull out some Dr. Phil, let me know what you think I should do. Right now I could use any type of advice.

Hope everyone had a fabulous friday!

Stilleto's+Cosmo's+Sex

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HOLY-MY-NOLY! I could totally pee my pants right now. I'm not the best at watching T.V. nor commercials, but as I was blogging the other day I caught the sound of Carrie Bradshaws voice and I immediately looked up and HOLY CRAP SEX AND THE CITY II IS COMING OUT THIS SUMMER!!!!! I could literally pee my pants, that's how excited I am. [insert giggle]

I recently said that I wanted to go see Alice in Wonderland sooo bad but I haven't yet because no one has taken me, oh yeah? well... screw this I will go and see Sex and The City II by myself if I have to! I am not waiting around for anyone on this one. I will be waiting there at the door as soon as the first showing comes about. (and yes, I will be wearing my best set of stilettos. and yes I will have just finished drinking several cosmo's!)

To my four favorite ladies of all time, I will see you soon... save me a seat and I'll bring the martini's!

*and to my followers, don't forget I will be Doug a vlog it if I get anough questions asked! Please leave a comment with a question if you would like to participate :)

Me, Myself, & You!

Like the majority of people, I generally look at the weekends as a great opportunity for "date nights". I must say, this weekend I have one hell of a hot date. Me, a bottle of Huck blackberry wine, a few good movies, and well... you!

I watched The Ugly Truth tonight. It's too cute! I am a cry baby when it comes to a good love story. Maybe it's because I'm a hopeless romantic, I'm not really sure. Nevertheless it could be the wine, either way I really liked the movie.

Speakin' of the wine, it's absolutely AMAZING! I decided to branch out last night, take a step out of my comfort zone, and try another type of wine other than Pinot Grigio. It's called Huck and it comes in a few different flavors. I picked blackberry because the person at the liquor store said that everyone that turns to it never turns to any other kind and becomes addicted. I'm okay with that! Anyways, turns out, it's absolutely fabulous. It's alot better than pinot grigio (oh dear wine-o gods, please do not come down and strike me). Needless to say it's cheap, so to me it's a winner!

Tomorrow, or tonight depends on how you look at it, is time to SPRING forward!! Woopwoop! We all know about spring cleaning but considering I clean on a weekly basis, I'm going to switch it up a bit! I have a few things I want to sit down and thoroughly organize some of my spaces. I'm kind of excited about it, I already started a little bit by buying a cabootles kit to finally organize my massive amounts of makeup. Now I would like to organize my bathroom cabinets, my nightstand, and my basket drawers. My goal is to get them all completed by summertime. I know that's a huge stretch of time but considering I am a HUGE procrastinator it would be a pretty big accomplishment to get it completed in that allotted time. :)

Well I'm starting to get antsy so for now I'm going to get off here, The Ugly Truth just came on Starz again and I can't help but to watch Gerard Butler, mmm' I wanna sink my... okay SO! anyways... lol I'm going to go now. ;)

(I tried posting this last night, only to wake up this morning to find out that I didn't let it load all the way hehe.)