Thursday, April 29, 2010

QOTW

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Monday, April 26, 2010

Media Monday- Photography



Welcome back to Media Monday's, hosted by yours truly. For those of you just joining: Media Monday has different themes every week. The former, Music Monday, has extended it's horizons for more fun and new themes to participate in. Be it literature (books), music, movies, or anything else media related, I hope you can join us!

This week's theme: Photography

Post a meaningful picture: Any type of picture, taken by you or someone else, something you googled, anything... Once posted, give us a reason why that specific picture is valuable, meaningful, sentimental, etc. Make sure you leave a comment with the URL link to your post so others can check your blog out!


[Not to diminish the value of this picture, but I have several pictures that are very valuable to me, in order for me to choose just one would take weeks of well thought out configuration. I chose this one, out of all of them, because it's my most valuable picture that is on my laptop.]

Furthermore, there's a lot of underlying meaning in this picture. This is my sister and I at her 2nd baby shower. (She had three! One for work, one for our side of the family and one for the BIL's side.) As most of my first followers know, my sister gave me the gift of life. However, he is only my nephew and most could possibly find this silly, but truly he gives me a reason to live and adds purpose to my life. I never knew I could love something so small and tiny so much. My heart swells with love for him, if I didn't know any better I gave birth to him. So why this picture you ask? Sure I could have posted a picture of Jacob, himself, but I wanted to post something with more depth and meaning. You see at this baby shower I had my first interactions with him. I held my sisters tummy and talked to him before all of the guests arrived, he started to kick like crazy! I would stop talking, he would stop kicking... it was precious. From that moment, I knew I was in love with the child that my sister was carrying. Later that afternoon he got the hiccups (if you've never felt the stomach of a pregnant woman whose child has the hiccups, it's absolutely adorable!). That is why this picture means so much. It was taken right after I had finished talking to mister Jacob Riley.

So what about ya'll? Have any pictures that hold a series of underlying memory? Don't forget to link up!

*Also, it has been noted to me that alot of you do "schedule" posting and since Monday's normally get the best of everyone, most people already have Monday's scheduled. If you would like to join in Media Monday however you schedule your posts, I will be more than happy to e-mail you the theme in advance at your convenience. Just e-mail me at thehaleybarr[at]yahoo[dot]com requesting the theme be given in advance, and I will be glad to e-mail you back!

Saturday, April 24, 2010

fire on aisle 9



Is it me, or does everyone have a huge obsession/love for some Wally World? Seriously, I could go and spend hours upon hours wandering around! (side note: my past roomate, Courtney, and I use to go to Wal-Mart with only each other cause all of our other friends were always wanting to get in-and-out yet we always want to explore) Nevertheless, this week I went to Wal-mart and had a very successful shopping trip. Probably spending more than I should have, but come on! Who can deny those roll back prices!! Anywayssss. In spite of it being earth day, I bought a eco-friendly bath body pouf! I originally picked up a not eco-friendly pouf, then saw the ones that were... I decided to go with it instead. It never hurts to get a little more green! Okay, plus it was three cents cheaper... but that wasn't my deciding factor.

Along with my new eco-friendly toy, I bought the basic necessities. Body wash, a few last-minute cosmetics (being that I normally shop MAC and MAC only...), some deoderant, my mom's mother day present, and a few greeting cards. (I've been feeling like I need to start sending more cards here lately, I don't know why but I feel like I do, but I'll save that for a later elaboration!)

So as I head towards the checkout lines I always go through them and kinda see who has what and how many shoppers, etc. ::keep pushing shopping cart:: Scccccccuurrr! (that's the sound of my carts breaks, if you must know) Hello checkout number 9! Never once have I seen a hot wal-mart employee. Number 9... oh my gosh... you are SEX-AY! So I pull my cart in, of course making sure I don't have any embarrassing items ie. condoms (because I buy them so often :sarcasm:), tampons, ...monistat? Nope, I'm in the clear. I wait behind the one person that is in his line. Of course, being my seductive-sexy-just got off of work- no make-up-rough hair... I stand there admiring hot boy number 9. OH OH OH! It's my turn. My turn to watch him scan my items, mmmhmmm!! Wait, what, NO!! As I pull up this fat girl comes up and says, "Okay, you can go on break now". WTF, seriously fat ass, now? Bitch. As I try to keep my composure I think about how bad I want to bitch slap this fatty-fat-so who just stole my one moment to meet the sexy number nine. He could've been my soul mate, she interfered with fate! (okay seriously, I wasn't that torn up over it but it makes a good story, riiiight!?!)

Continue rant:
I leave, put my stuff in the car, turn on 'Pour Some Sugar On Me' by Def Leppard... and if you haven't figured it out yet- I hold "Haley Idol" in my car no matter where I'm going. So I pull out of my parking spot meanwhile singing extremely loud- like windshield shattering style, and who's helping an elderly woman take her stuff to her car? Number 9 :enter orgasm: :orgasm abruptly ends when realizing he is staring at me like I've lost my mind: Sigh. Obviously it wasn't meant to be. Duh. I basically laughed all the way home about the incident. Probably because I feel like something as stupid as that would only happen to me.

I thought I would entertain you all with my fascinating Wal-mart trip, or maybe it's only fascinating to me. Either way, at least I posted at all. Tootles for now my lovely readers.

[Side note: Make sure you watch out for my May 1st post. It's pretty damn special.]

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Quote of The Week

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Tuesday, April 20, 2010

insert overly clever title here

I have been in a giggly giddy mood all day long. I don't know about ya'll but sometimes I get in these moods where I get so giggly and giddy that I just want to run around and scream. On the otherhand I keep thinking of really super silly things all day as well... example you ask? YOU GOT IT! Today, on my way to work, I thought about how Toyota should come out with shoes... for brides. So then they can be...RUNAWAY BRIDES! (insert hysterical laughter here) Then I kept driving, (first I have to explain something, there's a bridge here where on one side is three lanes then under the bridge it merges into two lanes) well I was in the center lane so the car would have to merge over on me, meanwhile I thought to myself 'I'm just gonna have to use a half tank of gas and steppp on thatttt metalll!' So in this process I say aloud "ADIOS SENOR!" ..I then look over and it's actually a car full of hispanics... I bout busted a gut laughing. Then I pulled into the parking lot at work dancing my hiney off to Boom Boom Pow then I abruptly stopped when my sister was standing at my car door with this confused look. I rolled down the window and she asked what the heck I was doing (i thought it was clear i was dancing of course...) so I simply responded "I was boom boom powing!" :still confused look: I told her it was a song and she said "oooh okay..so um anyways... that was some intense movement going on" Psh, duh... I'm an intense person. Anyways that's my insight for my humorous day. However, everytime a customer tried to joke with me they confused me instead... how does that happen? Normally I'm the jokester and I roll with the punches! Oh wellll.

I've decided I'm an odd person. That's alright by me, I'm just saying. I guess odd is the new black because I'm prettttty sure I got my 15th follower today. HOW YOU DOIN! (via Norbit, if you didn't know.) So hello to you Coco, you've brightened my world today.

This blog's purpose? To let you know I'm happy. So much so that I could pee my pants (and probably laugh about it too). I think it's time to put my stunna shades on and roll out.

Peace out, yo!

I might be giving you an award. See for yourself.

Is it me or is anyone else tired of seeing the same blog awards passed around? (hey, don't get me wrong, I love me some blog awards!) I feel like every blog I go to has the same ones...does this mean the value of the awards is being diminished or is everyones blog just that awesome?

With that being said, I took it upon myself to go in search of new blog awards. Though I came by pretty much the same ones that I've seen a dozen (times 10) times I did come by one that I don't believe I've ever seen... either that or I'm drunk right now, I'm going with the first one though. afdsadfaioj (sorry, my computer just vomited.)

Furthermore, I present you with my find. Generally an award is passed on by the almighty blogger who had just recieved it. Scratch that jazz, this is my blog, my rules... I found it... I'm passing it...take that biotchesss!



I read several blogs that make me smile just by seeing their "layout". Whether it was purchased or 'homemade' either way... some are just right out umm..well... ADORABLE! So here we go ladies, don't get too excited it's not for you it's for your blog (ha!) ...by giving you this i'm tellin' ya your blog is UBER CUTE!

Addicted to Addison
Summer's Story
Next to Heaven
Life with Leah
Life As Eye See It
My Leigh Ashley
Among the Blossoms
Haha.Wait.What?

Ya..ya... now go pass it on to your friends that you think are hot..err... i mean those cute blogs...

Giveaway!



Next to Heaven is hosting a giveaway!! I love her giveaways because well, they're always the best! Wanna know what the giveaway is? Well you'll have to click the picture above, I feel this is just too good for me to give it away without a little doing on your part. So go check out her giveaway... do forget to enter, errr I mean don't? Heh..heh..

;)

*if you are reading from google reader, the URL is http://www.nexttoheavenblog.com just copy and paste into your browser


Tootaloo!

Monday, April 19, 2010

Media Monday- Books

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It's that time again! Every Monday is Media Monday, hosted by yours truly. Each week is a different media theme, if you decide to join the bandwagon make sure to leave a comment with a link to your MM post!

This weeks theme: Books! I personally hated when teachers made me read. I preferred the freedom to choose my literature, but in high school we didn't have a choice. So tell me, what was your favorite book that you had to read in high school?


Mine personally was 'Of Mice and Men' by John Steinbeck. I was forced to read this my junior year in high school by my favorite teacher, Mrs. Slack, aka The Slack Attack. Though I really liked the book, after watching the movie I put faces to the characters and realllly fell in love with it.

I can't wait to hear what yours was :)

*Also, it has been noted to me that alot of you do "schedule" posting and since Monday's normally get the best of everyone, most people already have Monday's scheduled. If you would like to join in Media Monday however you schedule your posts, I will be more than happy to e-mail you the theme in advance at your convenience. Just e-mail me at thehaleybarr[at]yahoo[dot]com requesting the theme be given in advance, and I will be glad to e-mail you back!

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Wait, I'm at church?

Today's church service was amazing! I definately feel, yet could be mistaken, that this is the church I need to belong to. Our preacher gave a sermon on 'prayer'. He gave the church goers the opportunity to ask questions about prayer via e-mail, facebook, and twitter. There were actually so many questions provided that he could only cover a few in service. This sermon really touched me, I struggle alot with, as the preacher called them, "the rules" of prayer. His response to this (because thank goodness someone asked this because I really needed to hear it) was that there are no rules. He said something along the lines of: "When you talk to your parents, do you go by rules as to what and how to say it to them?" With that being said it all makes sense. In the bible it tells us that we are provided the opportunity to call God our Abba (daddy, pops, father). I don't have rules when speaking to my biological dad so why should I when it comes to 'talking' to my holy daddy?

The more and more I attend this church (i'm at three attendances thus far) the more and more the sermons hit home for me. The worship is crazy good, nonetheless! Half the time I forget I'm at church and think I'm at a concert hosted by my Abba himself! (which is just alright by me!). Needless to say, I love the sermons because they're not "long-winded". I'm not one to sit in a long church service, not because I don't want it taking up too much of my time or anything like that, but because I half way have ADHD and can only focus on so much. When the sermons are short and to the point, I'm more capable of getting the general message rather than forgetting every detail of a long-winded service.

Once more, I am so excited for next Sunday's sermon! If a church can have me excited all week long just for the next church service, then it has me! Speaking of prayer, I have this firm belief that when I did a "post-it" Tuesday and posted about not being able to find a church that's right for me in my town, someone took that to heart and prayed about it. If that's the case: to my praying reader- thank you, God has answered not only my prayer but yours as well!

Another firm belief: Prayer works. With that being said, feel free to e-mail me any prayer requests that you have. I will keep your prayer requests in complete confidentiality, unless otherwise told so.

thehaleybarr[at]yahoo[dot]com

Friday, April 16, 2010

my fabulous glass is half full...with daquiri!



It's that time again! Friday friday friday!!! lol. (okay, maybe I'm a little too happy! neehhhh that's not possible!

I am happy... because my mom and I planted all of our flowers (and other goodies) this week! *don't worry, pictures are coming ;)*
I am happy... that I finally e-mailed Heather back to help her with her blog design. (make sure you go and check out her blog. Super cute :)
I am happy... that I got 3 followers in less than a week. My heart is bursting with happiness on this one teh-heh!
I am happy... that the new girl at work is awesome, she's not a ditz!
I am happy... that I gave Summer (summer's story) a new quote that she really liked, it's one of my personal favesss too!! "Life's not about waiting for the storm to pass, it's about learning how to dance in the rain!"
I am happy... because I am happy. (Wait does that make sense? Either way, I'm happpppy)

I am so happy that everything has gone so amazing this week. ::searches for the closest piece of wood, to knock on::

...and because of this? I'm Fabulous!


Make sure ya'll visit my favorite Purple Diva and also Eyegirl!

Thursday, April 15, 2010

AWARD!

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I am BEAUTIFUL!! Because Leigh Ashley told me so! ;)

So with this award comes some rules, of course, which I don't mind at allll!

Seven Things About Me...
-I love planting flowers
-At the gym I prefer the treadmill over any other equipment
-I watch hardly to no t.v. at all, except for Channel 4 News.
-I'm a morning person
-I love getting new tooth brushes and paste. (don't judge me, i know it's wierd! ha)
-My mom is my BEE-FF (BFF...best friend...)
-I love arts and crafts, possibly more than I should.

Give to seven beautiful bloggers...
-Summer @ Summer's Story
-My Purple Diva @ My Life in Purple
-Bailey @ Addicted to Addison
-Jenn @ Life with Leah
-Venassa @ The Best Days of Your Life
-Heather @ Hello World, This is Me
-Valerie @ Next To Heaven

QOTW

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Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Random Words

Random words for Wednesday:

-I miss my handsome nephew Jacob.
-i need to get a pedicure.
-I enjoyed working/training with the new girl last night at work.
-I'll be digging in the dirt and planting flowers today.
-I bought some awesome teeth whitening stuff at the tanning bed last night*
-I feel like my days keep getting shorter and shorter, 24hours isn't quite long enough sometimes.
-in less than a week I got three new followers. Hello and welcome to my divalicious, not so interesting, world.
-I have started to grow an obsession for the show "Jerseylicious" on Style Network.
-I can't wait fo the bachelorette to come on. Seriously I might have just wet my pants a little just thinking about it.
-I don't understand why someone would call in a specialty order for pumpkin and sweet potato pies in the midst of almost 80 degree weather. Wth?
-I think something is oddly wrong with Bootie, he's been acting strange th past few days. Maybe the weather change or something.
-I am in serious need of a heater for my pool...I could be swimming right now!!

*the stuff is a uv whitener you apply it with a tiny paint brush and put in a mouth piece that keeps your mouth open so the tanning bed can activate the whitener. Fairly easy if you ask me. :)

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

mini-fill-in

The past several days have been so beautiful! I almost feel guilty even sitting here typing this instead of laying out by the pool and soaking up as much sun as possible. However, not all is lost, I am sitting outside on my laptop so atleast I am still participating in the beautiful weather ;)

My mom and I have spent SO much time together here lately. I've loved every minute of it. Yesterday we went to Lifeway and I bought a new bible. It's really cute and I'm excited about using it because it's a Life Application Bible. We'll see, I follow up on it in a later post. After leaving there we went to Starbucks and sat outside and enjoyed the weather. I introduced her to their strawberry banana smoothies (which she LOVED) and I got a venti passion fruit tea sweetened with lemonade. (If you've never had one, I highly suggest you go get one...you can blame me for your new found addiction ;) )

We pretty much just diddled around town all day, not much of anything. I started feeling a bit 'under the weather' due to the crazy-high pollen counts here lately. Speaking of, today's is even higher than yesterday! (I don't know the exact number, I just know it's alot thanks to my self-taught meteorologist mother)

Oh and before I forget! I have to mention how amazing church went on Sunday!! As some of you know, I have been having a horrible time finding a church that I really like. Easter Sunday I visited a new church that is held at my old high school. As much as I loved it then, I had to attend again to really see if I liked it. Well, this past Sunday was even better. Even my sister, which is EXTREMELY picky about churches, loved it. I think Jacob did too cause he was all smiles when we picked him up from the nursery :). Unfortunately my brother-in-law, Justin, couldn't make it because he had food poisoning, but my sister said she will definately be back this Sunday, as will I!

Well as for now, I should probably get off here. I need to partake in some much needed 'pick-up' around the house. Needless to say the clothes in my dryer are calling my name... :[ I just wanted to make a quick post to catch ya'll up on my church experience and other random items. I haven't been really posting about myself here lately so I thought I'd at least give ya'll a mini-fill-in.

Monday, April 12, 2010

Media Monday



It's that time again! For those of you just now joining, Media Monday is hosted by me, The Diva Bee. Each week is hosted with a different theme. Feel free to grab the Media Monday banner and post it on your own blog, and don't forget to link up as well!

This weeks media theme is books! Post your favorite love story and make sure you include the author and title of the book.

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This week's MM was really hard for me. I am a sucker for a good love story so of course this would be a rough one for me. However, my final decision came down to James Patterson's "Sunday's at Tiffany's". I chose this one because the story is truly amazing, not quite practical, but definately something to get butterflies stirring in your tummy! Want to know more? Well, I refuse to tell you for the simple fact that I don't want to give away too much information.

Several of my other favorites:
True Believer- Nicholas Sparks
A Bend in the Road- Nicholas Sparks
Something Borrowed- Emily Giffon

I'm pretty much a sucker for anything written by Nicholas Sparks but I also highly suggest reading Something Borrowed by Emily Giffon... it will defiantely keep you on your toes.

So what's your favorite written love story?

Saturday, April 10, 2010

I'm Fabulous

...because my favorite purple diva, says so!

Anybody noticed anything? Thought so! NEW BLOG DESIGN! Heyheyhey! Thanks to my lovely friend Bailey, I now have a divalicious layout! Score, yo! (anybody noticed the overuse of exclamation marks? heh..heh...) Anyways, if you would like to see more of her awesome designs you can visit her design blog and check out her portfolio! She's so easy to work with and returns your e-mails in a timely manner. The process was so easy, I was actually kind of stressed about it and probably sent one too many e-mails asking so many questions, (sorry bailey!) So you all will definately have to ch-ch-ch-check it out! ;)

Other news: This week has been one fabulous week! So much so that I find it a little too hard to pass up this weeks fabulous friday hosted by one hot purple diva! ... even though I missed it by a day! ::lifts apple martini:: Here's to my Fabulous Saturday!

[click here & make sure you join next friday!]

I am fabulous because...
+I spent two wonderful days this week doing nothing but shopping and having fun with my mom. Okay.. maybe we spent a little too much money... but it's whatever!
+I had successful week at work, and that's always something to smile about!
+I saw an old friend this week, we've been reuniting!
+I bought two pairs of cute shorts this week & two shirts, plus accessories to match!
+The weather has been astounding!
+We finally got to turn our pools fountain on!!!
+I finally got to be anxious all week long to attend church this Sunday!
+I got another follower! Hello #11, so nice of you to join me!
+I finally figured out how to "schedule" posts... all on my own! (okay, yea, i'm slow.. what's up!)

All together, this week has really been more than I could ask for. Everyday was filled with smiles, laughter, and joy. And that... that makes me fabulous.

[Don't forget: I will be making a vlog soon, so if you have any questions that you would like for me to answer in it, make sure to leave your question in a comment! Also, Monday is approaching, I hope you will be able to make it to Media Monday hosted by yours truly :) ]

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Stilleto's+Cosmo's+Sex


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HOLY-MY-NOLY! I could totally pee my pants right now. I'm not the best at watching T.V. nor commercials, but as I was blogging the other day I caught the sound of Carrie Bradshaws voice and I immediately looked up and HOLY CRAP SEX AND THE CITY II IS COMING OUT THIS SUMMER!!!!! I could literally pee my pants, that's how excited I am. [insert giggle]

I recently said that I wanted to go see Alice in Wonderland sooo bad but I haven't yet because no one has taken me, oh yeah? well... screw this I will go and see Sex and The City II by myself if I have to! I am not waiting around for anyone on this one. I will be waiting there at the door as soon as the first showing comes about. (and yes, I will be wearing my best set of stilettos. and yes I will have just finished drinking several cosmo's!)

To my four favorite ladies of all time, I will see you soon... save me a seat and I'll bring the martini's!

*and to my followers, don't forget I will be Doug a vlog it if I get anough questions asked! Please leave a comment with a question if you would like to participate :)

Elaboration

So there have been a few posts where I said that I would "elaborate" another time, another post. So with that being said, that's what I'm going to do. I'm going to cover the two topics that I said I would cover, because two is all that I remember.

Numero Uno: Number Six Fear.

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I don't know how it started nor do I know when, all I know is that it did. I have this horrible fear of the number six. It bothers me on a day-to-day basis and this fear has really changed my life. The first instance that I remember is being broken up with on June 6th by my 6th boyfriend. A series of events took place to and from that point. I can't exactly recall all of them. My ex-boyfriend, the one mentioned in a previous post that we call J, as well as my best friend and my parents were all trying to break me of this fear. I prayed about it religiously and felt like I tried all that I could do. Until one day, the day that I later decided was my confirmation point, that best friend and I decided to take a trip to Wal-mart. I was still relatively new to the new city I had just moved to so I didn't know the exact layout like I did Hendersonville, my home town that I was born and raised in until I was 17 years young. We pulled into the Wal-Mart parking lot, I clearly remember it was a beautiful sunny day and Wally World's parking lot was packed with all types of vehicles. When K (the best friend) and I finally found a parking spot, we got out of the car and headed towards the door. I then realized, "I am parked in aisle 6, I have to move my car". Immediately I turned around and started to head towards my car and in return K pulled my arm and put me to a halt. She told me she would buy me anything in the store if I wanted her to but that my six insanity has got to come to an end. After arguing discussing it further I finally said okay and that I would put my combat boots on and battle. I was ready to take on number six and I was all prepared to win. The rest of the day was fine, nothing bad happened, we didn't wreck on our way home… all was fine. "SCORE!" is exactly what I thought. Then… the next morning I woke up with a text message from S, another one of my best friends, telling me that Nathan Johnson had died in a car wreck on his way to football practice. Nathan Johnson was all in all my inspiration to be a better person. He was my inspiration to be all that I could be and to not the little mishaps in life get me down. Needless to say, he was an all around amazing guy. Singer/Writer/Guitarist/Pianist for his band Through A Glass, was on the high school soccer team as well as football, he was in my church's youth group and was a part of the River's Edge Worship group. Furthermore, he was one HOT tamale! After this though, I have never been able to get over the number six. My parents have adapted to it. They know when watching TV and they go to turn the volume up the volume level must be a higher or lower number than 26 (because 25 is pretty much the ideal volume setting on our tv, that's why I say 26). At work when they ask me to put more potatoes on they know not to tell me to put six, they always choose 5 or 7. I still to this day do not park in aisle 6, and if I have to get something from the grocery store in aisle six it's normally me leaving my cart at the end of the aisle and running to get the item then running out of the aisle. I freak and my heart sinks if I look at the clock at 6:06. At work I know that a cornbread sandwich and a medium drink costs exactly $6.66 I always add a penny to the charge thus leaving it to be $6.67. (don't worry my dad knows about this and he just goes along.) Pretty much anyone that is close to me knows about my fear. They know that I'm horribly freaked out. The first time I ever rang up the CB sandwich and a md drink I went into a panic, had to leave the cash register and go outside to catch fresh air because I was sweating bullets. My manager took it over from there, she automatically knew what was wrong. Call me a freak, I'm fine with that. Because if I could change it I would and honestly half the time when I think about how much my life revolves around running from the number 6 it really shakes me up and almost brings me to tears.



 

Numero Dos: Battling Anorexia

[my sophomore year, when I finally started gaining]

It all started in seventh grade in middle school. I was pretty much the ugly duckling. I had nothing spectacular about the way I looked. I was pale with blonde hair and I looked plain. I took my frustrations out on my body. I felt if I could just get a little skinnier then maybe I would be beautiful. Little did I know that I was actually becoming more skeleton-like, and much less attractive then my starting point. At the time I saw myself so much larger than I really was. My basic meal plan was no breakfast, a SOBE energy drink for lunch with a 4-pack of peanut butter crackers and a very small or no dinner at all. You may be wondering, how in the world did your parents not catch on to such a thing? They always knew I was petite and they dismissed my poor eating habits because I always told them that I ate a large lunch so they finally became accustom to it. However, that was not the case. If I did have more than my basic meal plan I immediately went to the restroom to throw up. Being in the bathroom for such an extended time I told my parents I just had diarrhea, trust me they backed off then. If not eating was bad enough, I had this crazy addiction to the treadmill. I was constantly running my ass off and doing as many crunches I could, on average it ranged from 200-300 crunches a day. This little rampage towards being beautiful continued till I was a freshman in high school. After doing badly on my report card I came home and fell out on the floor and told my mom everything. I told her that I couldn't handle life anymore, that I was a pathetic excuse for a human being. My mom scheduled an appointment for me to go meet with a doctor that finally diagnosed me with depression. We talked about my multiple suicide attempts and my eating habits, I finally bared all. He started me out on 20mg Zoloft. Over the years, my mgs have been increased to 100, and soon I will be scheduled for a reexamination/check-up. I still have my days, but I'm stronger than I ever was before. Now I am a proud chunky kid that embraces my thickness. My dark days are over and I will never be returning to that point. I have come to my senses and conquered my disease, now I realize that my body is a temple and that I am to cherish it for what it's worth. I feel the need to post a picture. This picture was me my sophomore year of high school after gaining 20lbs. My collarbones still poke out and my chest is still caved in. Don't let the "boobs" fool you, I was wearing an ultra-padded strapless and the blouse had a padded bra as well.


 

What are some of the things you have overcome? Do you have a fear that will not let you go?

Tuesday, April 6, 2010

Post-it Tuesday








vlog nation



A lot of the blogs I follow have been posting vlogs. I have actually considered doing so myself but I don't know what I would do mine on. So here's your chance to ask me any question(s) in the entire world and I will provide you with an answer via vlog. If I recieve enough questions I will post one, if not... maybe next time when people actually care what I have to say :)

Monday, April 5, 2010

Media Monday



As some of you know, I normally host "Music Monday". Well I've decided to let Music Monday go and change it to Media Monday. Now Monday's are not only limited to music, but now movies, books, and other media sources as well! ::round of applause::. Hopefully now some of you can join in on the funnn, or maybe just a selected few and myself find this exciting. Nevertheless, read on.

This weeks Media Monday is [still] focused on music. Though I have changed it a bit I still got really excited about this weeks theme that I had already planned.

Name your favorite cover song!

Make sure to list the original artist of the song as well as the cover artist



I have several cover songs that I really like. This one is by far one of my favorites. It's called "Lollipop" originally produced by Lil Wayne, covered by Framing Hanley. They took a rap song and changed it up to have an alternative rock feel. Ah! I love it! Maybe this isn't much of a style in ya'lls boat but this definately gets my feet to tappin! A little explicit, so please do not let your children be around if/when you play the following video.


(A little commercial break: A funny story)
So I started listening to this band last year. I absolutely lovedddd their CD yet I never knew what any of the members of the band looked like, their names, or anything. One day my interest peaked...I googled em... and waddayaknow... the basist is my... EXBOYFRIEND!?!? (in the above picture before the video he is the one on the end of the far right) Awkward much? As soon as I saw the picture I started googling who was in the band and I even went to his myspace profile to make sure I wasn't going crazy. It's verified... my exboyfriend is in my new favorite band that I had no idea about. See picture below... him and I a few days before I broke up with him.

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Another one of my all time favorite cover songs is Tiny Dancer. Originally sang by Elton John, covered by Ben Folds Five. Loveee it!

So tell me, Diva's, what is/are your favorite cover song(s)? Link up with Mr. Linky so everyone can click on your Media Monday post!

Me? A blogger?

Oh my, I swear I didn't die! I've decided that because I am such an awful, unconsistant, blogger that I will now be officially deleting my blog. Though, I just purchased a design from BBB I will let her finish my design and install, but I will no longer be blogging.

April Fools. Post-poned of course ;) ::insert giggle here::

So anyways, all jokes aside, I actually did finally purchase a blog design. It's currently in the making and I am tickled pink!! I seriously CANNOT WAIT! Now, if I could start consistantly posting on my inconsistant, slow, retarded laptop then I will be good to go! ;) Woot woot. My car payment is coming up this week and I will start saving up for my new computer. Maybe then I will be one consistantly blogging diva! Til' then you'll have to take it as they come... so sad.

Yesterday was Easter and by far one of the best ones at that! I have recently been 'tweeting' about how I really want to find a good church here in my "new" town. (I say new because when I moved here I then left for college and now I've returned and decided that this is where I will be staying for the time being until further notice... so basically I'm just now making myself at home even though I moved here almost 6 years ago.) Well yesterday my parents and I attended a church that is currently being held at my old high school until their building is finished being built. It's called Grace Community Church and really... it's the closest thing that I have yet to find that resembles LHBC. (lhbc=my hometown church that i use to attend and practically lived at) So who couldn't be excited about that?! I'm a firm believer that not every church is for everyone. I think it's like a personal relationship with your church. I'm not much into traditional services nor singing hymns. (sp?) This church was totally my style. The worship was more like attending a concert where they completely rockkkk outttt. Which I'm all up for! There was definately a mixture of age groups which I find a necessity for the simple fact that as I get older I don't want to feel like I'm still at a church with only teens or only grandparents. Etc.etc. All in all, definately a good experience and I will most definately be attending next Sunday as well!
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As always, today I will be hosting Music Monday. I have officially decided to change it to Media Monday. That way, it won't only be about music but it can also be about books, movies...etc. Hooray! *see next post for more information*

Well I'm off for now, I have to go start my new Media Monday post. See ya in a minute!