Goodbye 2010. Hello 2011.

I don't know about y'all but I am shocked that it's already been a year. Where has time gone? I can't say that it's been the best year, I can't say that it's been the worst. However I can say that there's not a moment that went by where I didn't LIVE. With all my might I tried to make the most out of everything this year. I won't say that I don't have any regrets but I will say that I learned from my mistakes. There's been highlights...there's been lowlights... but I want to ring in the new year focusing on the highlights and what made this year what it was. So without further adieu I present to you the top 10 highlights of 2010.

10. Jacob Riley had his very first birthday party.
9. I let go of relationships that were ultimately not healthy for me.
8. I rekindled a relationship that has been damaged for quite some time.
7. I took on a new job with a new role and a new partner. (along with the responsibilities)
6. I grew into the person that I want to be. The person that I was meant to be.
5. I met an incredible person through the blogging experience and even though we don't communicate as we once did, this person will always lay heavy on my heart.
4. I made it to my 22nd birthday, therefore I made it out of 21...huge highlight for me.
5. Someone came into my life that made me realize settling is never again going to be an option. What I want is out there I just had/have to wait for it.
4. I have successfully owned my own car and made payments on it for a full year without ever once being late on a payment.
3. I grew a backbone. I'm not going to say much more about this one.
2. Several babies were born and several vows were made.
1. I finally let go of the past.


Maybe my list isn't as extraordinaire as others but for me each one of the above listed has greater detail and meaning than listed. I also want to congratulate everyone that has given birth this year or found they're pregnant. (I feel like this year everyone I know had a child or became pregnant and that even includes the friends I have made through blogging. ) so congratulations. I hope everyone has a happy new year and I'll see ya on the other side :)

The kissable best friend

So by the time i got home last night from work I was ready to just fall over! Monday i worked an 8hr shift then Tuesday a 13hr and Wednesday a 13hr. It wouldn't have been so awful it all the hours werent compiled so close together. So nevertheless, due to these odd hours i haven't been able to see K since Sunday. With any other guy I've ever previously dated I would've been devastated but with K it's like i really don't have to worry about it because i know as soon as I see him it's going to be amazinggg. My dad and i were actually talking about it last night and it's like everything between me and K is so simple. Every other guy has always had his baggage and our relationship has always been complicated. I know I'm doing some comparing here but everything with K is so different then anything I've ever experienced before. We just enjoy being around each other and having fun. We don't argue or get jealous or anything. It's just like I'm hanging out with my best friend... a best friend that is extremely attractive and kissable of course ;)

I've been trying to refrain from saying too much about him because I'm petrified of jinxing myself or making myself look like a fool when it doesn't work out (don't get me wrong I'm really hoping for the best here...). However I want to scream from the rooftops and tell everyone how amazing he is, to me anyways. Truth be told I'm happier now than I have been in a long time.

A quick note

So if you've been reading my blog for a while now then you know that when it comes to me posting on my computer, I have serious issues. Anyone remember when I talked about getting a new laptop? Well hello procrastinating tight-wad! I keep putting it off because in all honesty I hate spending large amounts of money at once. It literally causes me anxiety with a side dish of nausea.

HOWEVER! I am proud to announce that I did it. I ended up not buying a laptop nor desktop. I actually went with an iPad instead. Talk about blogging on the go! Ha! So happily I can say that I will now be blogging more frequently, unless time prohibits.

Ps. If you're looking at buying an iPad and need a second opinion: DONT HESITATE! Buy one! I love mine and I've had it less than 24 hours! Hehe.

the meeting

Why is it that every time something seems so right, I want to pick up my heels and run like hell? It's this never ending cycle. When something is so good in my life it's like I want to screw it up so it fits in with everything else. I think I'm losin' it.

Other news, I met the parents yesterday... and the sister... and the nieces and nephews. Oh and the home town friends, paster, youth group partner, and the whole youth group. It was different. It's almost like I went back in time when I was a little girl. My hometown use to be super small and nonexistent just like K's was. It's like being around people who just like being around one another. No walmart. No mall. No fast food on every corner. Mom and pop stores filled the roads where empty woods didn't. It felt like home. Red lights consisted of people honking their horns at one another just to say hello. At one point we were at a stop sign and K honked his horn at a man in a truck and they waved just like they saw each other yesterday. Come to find out it was the husband of a woman who took care of K when he was younger.

The meeting of the parents went far from expected. They're just good ole backwoods people with nothing to lose but love and faith.

Honestly, I loved every minute of it.

Merry Christmas y'all!

I hope everyone is having an amazing Christmas!! I know I am.

I have everything I want.
Amazing family
Amazing God.
Amazing man.

Tomorrow K -the guy Im dating- and I are going to his home town which is about 45 minutes away from where we live to go to church. He goes every Sunday however I have yet to go with him because that means I'll be meeting his parents. That's right tomorrow I'm meeting the parents! Talk about nervous. He doesn't understand why I'm so nervous because he's already met my parents and my sister. However, I had to explain to him that he went into meeting the parents not knowing that it could potentially be a deal breaker if they didn't like him, he on the other hand let me know upfront that he couldn't be with someone if his parents didn't like "her". So why wouldn't I be nervous!? Nevertheless I will be meeting them tomorrow and aside from my nerves I'm excited to see what makes him who he is. Can I just say that I'm overly thrilled that were going to church together. I've always wanted a guy that is willing to go to church with me and most say they will and then gripe about it later. So the fact that he asked me to go with him to his church made me ever so excited!!! The fact that he even has a church is even better!! Ah. Okay I'm going to calm down now cause I get all girly and giggly when talking about him it's kind of ridiculous. Haha.

Anyways I hope everyone has a wonderful Christmas and a happy new year if I don't write before then :)

something new...

All that I've wanted for so long could possibly be here. I've wanted it for so long that I don't want to say too much and jinx it but I will say this, I am truly happy where I'm at right now.

I use to judge people who used dating websites. I actually laughed and thought that they were desperate. In the end is desperation measured by what lengths we will go to in order to find what we really want in life? If so, I'm desperate and I'm not ashamed to say so. I've hidden the fact that I joined a dating website because in reality I didn't want people thinking that I couldn't get a date on my own without using internet resources. However, I have come to a smarter, more realistic conclusion. There's no reason to be ashamed. By joining I cut through the crap and got down to what I was really wanting. I can't count how many dates I've been on and questioned myself on what the other person was really looking for. By dating via Internet I cut straight to the point. There's no wondering involved you know what they want i.e. sex, dating, long term. Though my best friend even gave me crap for it, she ended up joining just to see what it was like and what do ya know she's dating someone now that she actually met from there. HA!

Anyways so this is how the story goes: I had been on the site for probably 6 months. I talked to two guys in the that time frame, nothing serious. However this one profile kept showing up on my matches and something kept intriguing me about his picture. However, his picture had a kid in it and I'm not really into dating someone with children due to a prior bad experience. So I never clicked on his profile to even view it. Three months later I still keep seeing him pop up but now he has a different picture. So I finally click on his profile just to read what he's about however I never read whether or not he had children because subconsciously I had my mind made up that he did. Well not too long ago I read his profile one last time. Come to find out it's his niece and nephews. Also come to find out he goes to church every Sunday and sits with his grandfather then heads to his grandmas to eat breakfast and hang out with his niece and nephews. Godly man? Family man? ...you had me from hello! Ha.

So I messaged him and long story short we went on our first date which maybe one day I will go into more detail about. However I will say this, we were both so nervous that he even took his anxiety medication and brought a back up. Everything went great we've seen each other several times since and we text all day/night.

I'm super excited about this one.
However, in all honesty, I'm scared as hell.