Wee Bit Wednesday

A day late!

Ummm two posts in less than an hour? what-evaaa I gotta lotta say!



{one} what is your biggest pet peeve?
I have a lot, so to say the BIGGEST would be hard to choose just one. So I'm going to go with... walking through wet grass (obviously in sandals where the grass actually touches me feet) lol.


{two} what is your favorite dessert?
Cheesecake!


{three} what is the first thing you notice about people?
pretty much their overall appearance... different things stand out on different people... or maybe I'm wierd


{four} are you usually late, early or right on time?
depends on the occasion lol but mainly late heh...heh...


{five} have you ever fired a gun?
does a paintball gun count?


{six} are you right-handed or left-handed?
rightyyy

{seven} which do you prefer: coke or pepsi?
diet COKE, regular PEPSI


{eight} do you dance crazy when no one is looking?
all the timeee! one time i was dancing in my car at a red light, not thinking anyone was watching... I then looked over to find myself being video taped by the people in the car beside me. ha!


{nine} what’s your favorite movie snack?
ummm popcorn, duh!


{ten} do you scream on roller coasters?
no, i normally start laughing hysterically

picture perfect

Hooray for retail therapy! Okay so today I went shopping after work. Normally people use retail therapy when they're stressed or upset but me? No I just used it because people at work cut my nerves! So anyways moving onwards! I first stopped by Dick's Sporting Goods and bought a Titan's t-shirt as well as some cute little shorts! Oh yes, this coming Sunday's game is going to be watched in total comfort. (Unless I have a smelly guy standing near me at the game, that's not exactly comfortable...) I then stopped by Best Buy to price check some cameras, ended up leaving because no one even offered to help me price check... rude. So I then stopped by Wally World and dropped by the electronics department and not one but two people asked to help me... that's what I'm talking about people. So I ended up walking out of there with a lighter wallet and a new digital camera! Score. Okay so I didn't go full out and by an SLR or anything, really the only reason I even went to get one is because I wanted a smaller camera that was less bulky than the one I already own.

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I ended up going with a simple digital camera, nothing fancy-shmancy. I wasn't looking to spend over $150 because I know I'll eventually want to get an SLR and really all I needed this one for was to take to Titan's games and what-not. (my other camera is bulky so it was always taking up too much room in my purse) Furthermore I bought the Kodak EasyShare M530. It's small and cute and does everything I need it to...which is simply take pictures and load them to my computer lol, nothing too high tech. Though I may have only spent $108.57 (not to be precise or anything?) it actually takes a lot better pictures then my $200 something camera that's fat and inconvenient! Yes, you read correctly I just called it fat. heh...

-Next Subject-
So today I didn't go into work until 10AM and only had a five hour work day, what's even better is tomorrow is a repeat of the same. Talk about vacation! Ahhh heavennnn! (As I was typing this I get a phone call from work telling me that in the morning I need to have enough food made for 300-400 people. Um ez-cuse me? Oh the life of a pro-caterer! HA!)

So anywho, be on the look out for day 3 of 10 Days of Digging Deeper! =)

OH! and Ps. Has anyone read 'Why Men Love Bitches' by Sherry Argov? A while ago I had a friend tell me about it and tell me about how good it was but I can't think about who it was that told me nor can I think about what all she said. So if you've read it, let me know your thoughts!

Wordless Wednesday v.1

10 Days of Digging Deeper has been interupted to bring you my first, Wordless Wednesday!



Because you know you can't look at that without laughing.

10 Days of Digging Deeper v.2

Welcome back to my series 10 Days of Digging Deeper! Today's prompt is: (drum roll, anyone....anyone?)

Name 10 of your most favorite qualities in your mate -or- 10 qualities that you hope to find in your future mate.

Obviously I'll be listing 10 qualites I hope to find in my future mate. :)


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I would love for my future husband to have a great listening ear. I've never really had that in a relationship before, but to have someone really listen to me would probably be one of the best gifts.


AH! I am going to HAVE to marry a man that loves dogs! I'm 100% against animal cruelty, I think it's worst then human-to-human cruelty because unlike humans, animals can't speak for themselves, nor defend themselves...okay they can bite but that's not the point! Anyways, back to subject! A man that can love a dog has a sensitive side, and every woman should love that ;)


I would love for my mate to have a kind heart. Someone that cares about others, always has everyones best interest at heart. Wouldn't hurt a fly, however wouldn't let anyone run over him.


Loyalty. I think that's self explanatory. Loyalty is an extremely important quality and character trait.


To me this is one of the most important qualities that I could find in a man. The ability to act like a kid. Two kids in love. Rainy days spent coloring in coloring books, playing monopoly, or even go fish. The ability to ask me to play in the rain with him or even roll around in dirt. That's what is one of the most important qualities to me. I feel like if he has the ability to act like a kid our relationship won't have a dull moment. hehe


I love to life so this is almost a necessity. Okay, it definitely is. Fart in front of me and I'm able to fall off the bed laughing. That's just the way I am. I'll have a burping contest, or even dutch oven you... okay that's a joke lol. But seriously I love to laugh so this is definitely important to me. :)


I love love love to cuddle. I'm a big time cuddle-bug! hehe So basically it would be pretty bad ass to have a cuddle-bug man ;)


A family man. I am obviously an extremely family oriented chica and I would definitely want the same from my hubbs. Family has always meant a whole lot to me and if me and Mr. Man (of my dreams) were to decide to have a child or children, for that matter, I would sure hope that both of us (not just me) are highly involved in our child(rens) lives. --but not that overbearing kinda involvement, I would like for them to be able to breathe at the end of the day.


I definitely need a man that can inspire me, in many different aspects of my life. I want someone to inspire me to be the best I can be in my work, my religion, my family, and my relationship. Inspiration is definitely important to me and I hope that I can do the same for him.


Last but not least, the most important of all: a religious man. If a guy won't go to church with me, I want no part in him. I without a doubt want a Godly man. To me, a relationship won't last that's not built on a firm Godly foundation.

Ps. Dude, where are you!?


I hope some of ya'll join in, I'm excited to see what others say :) Till next time, my lovely readers...

10 Days of Digging Deeper v.1

There has been so much on my mind lately that I feel like I can't even focus on one thing for too long! Talk about madness, I feel like my mind has gone into overload. Hence me being away for a week. However I have been mad crazy at work! Anywayssss... I woke up this morning thinking to myself, how did I get here? Ya, ya I'm not talking about none of that birds and bees stuff lol. If you would've asked me five years ago if this is where I would be standing today, I would have said no.

With that being said, I've decided to start a 10 day series, "10 Days of Digging Deeper". Each day will have a different prompt that digs a little deeper into who YOU are, and how you got to that point. I've always wanted to know more about the blogs I read and I find this to be a perfect way to get to know your readers and let them get to know you a little better. Teehee :)

Without further adieu, I present to you the first prompt:
Name one of the best times in your life.

By far one of the best times I have ever had in my life was when I went on Spring Break to Panama City Beach, Florida. I have never felt so free and careless in my entire life (okay, so this could be due to the large quantity of alcohol being consumed, but that's not the point!) My mom, E, B, and I roomed together but considering that's basically college kids stomping ground during SB I knew quite a few (understatement) people. Every day we would wake up accompanied by orange juice and tylenol. Maybe after 30 minutes of us attempting to wake up we would put on our bikinis load up our coolers and travel down to the beach! Once we were at the beach, we oiled up and passed out! haha. Around 4PM we would head back up to the room to eat lunch/dinner and we would shower and get ready, with beer/martini in hand of course! After getting ready at night we would head out to the clubs (don't worry, we always had a taxi). We normally rolled in at about 4AM and then go to bed and wake up the next morning at 8AM and repeat. Sobriety was very limited the entire time but I have never had such a carefree vacation in all my life. No drama, no school, no work, nothing. Just alcohol, sun, beach, and friends. I don't think you could get a better combination then that!

Now for pictures! Warning: Picture Overload.


This is a picture we took while pregaming before heading out to the club :) Oh ps. not for children to see.


Me and one of my best friends, apparently the same night hence the shirt.


HA! Funny story about this one. One night we all drank a little too much (understatement) and we all woke up hungover. However, that night I had a dream about funneling beer so when I woke up the next morning I figured why not have the breakfast for champions! College years, what can I say?


Me and E before we headed out to soak up some sun ;)


Me and B... you like my chub? You would think that I would at least be sober enough to remember to suck in the tum tum. Obviously not. PS. If you zoom in, you can see my the tip of my tattoo on my waist line.


Pool=Love. You can't see it in this picture because it was taken too early in the morning, but there's actually three waterfalls in the pool. Ah it was BA.


The Crew


I'll stop posting pictures now before it gets graphic! HA! Just kidding, of course. Might I add that I am NOT an alcoholic. Okay, one may beg to differ at the time when we were there, but it's spring break! Everyone gets wild! lol.

Anyways, if ya'll decide to join in the 10 days of digging, feel free to leave a comment so that others can check your digging out! ha, I'm so cheesy.

rant, with a capital R

Well, today...I've decided to just rant about random things, shocking right? HA!

-Is it me or is this year going by too fast? My mom is currently sitting next to me singing jingle bells while looking at a Christmas decor magazine. Maybe she's just crazy but ya know, I love her lol.

-I'm beginning to think I have a shopping issue. I love "stuff" too much. Maybe I need to reevaluate my priorities.

-I'm actually beginning to think that I need to reevaluate a lot of things.

-I don't write in my personal journal nearly enough. I use to write in it like crazy! Where is all the time going?

-Every since I took a step up at my job, I feel like I don't have time to do anything. Half the stuff I want to accomplish never gets done due to my busy schedule. I need to find some sort of balance.

-Where is a 20-something-single-female suppose to meet her prince charming? (Obviously not a bar nor club) My dating life is none existant and I would like to change that. However I don't have any friends to meet guys through nor do I have much of a social life... well this is looking like a dead end road. :sigh:

-I need to ban myself from getting on facebook. Everyone is getting married and having babies and everytime I see this I almost get angry, thank God there's never a knife around me or I would probably start stabbing the computer screen. :joke... i'm not that crazy! haha:

-I need to figure out what I want to do with myself. I keep asking God for signs whether it be to stay working for my dad (and forever be under his thumb) or to take a chance on getting my education degree (i say chance, because i'm scared I won't like being a teacher... yet I would love to do it...)

-Is it obvious to anyone that I need a lot of answer? :sigh: I just wish things were easier and came easier. I miss the good ol' days when the hardest thing I had to worry about or even do was making sure I picked out the right outfit for picture day in school!

-end rant-

a heated conclusion

Did anyone watch the Titans VS. Steelers game yesterday? What a bummer. The first play (Pittsburg) pretty much set the tone. I would start to think we were getting somewhere, and then of course it was a set back. I had a feeling the game was going to be a tough one, but I'm just happy it was anything like 50-0... that would've sucked. However I'm going to blame it all on the heat. It was absolutely miserable outside. Anyone drinking beer really felt it afterwards, that's a definite! By the time I got home I was so dehydrated it wasn't even funny and even J didn't feel too good. There was also talk about how yesterdays game could possibly be the hottest weather to be played in. I think I can agree, I haven't been in heat like that since I can't tell you when. Literally, my skin felt like it was catching on fire, hence why we left during the third quarter.

After yesterday, I really believe that J and I are going to remain as friends. He made a joke during tailgating when a van pulled up and blocked our view. "Great, now I can't check out that gymnast looking chick" :insert ego crash, confidence failure, and blow to the heart: By that point I brushed it off and said to hell with it. I can't keep longing for something that will never be, which of course that small ounce of hope with still reside in the back of my head. I have to move on from all this. I'm refrain from all communication right now. I'm not going to text him or anything unless he texts me first and even with that there will only be a limited response back. Maybe I'm starting to put up my walls and maybe that's not the best thing to do but right now it doesn't matter anymore. I don't want to feel for him the way I do so therefore I'm pulling back.

However I do want to thank the two that responded to my last post. ("What if?") I really took in what ya'll had to say. Yet by the 'signs' of yesterday I just don't ever see much coming out of it, unfortunately. Yesterday was what I have been waiting for, some clear sign. Even though he may have been joking, I know without a doubt that I'm not the girl he has his eye on. With that being said, I do hope that one day my prince charming will find me. I long to be a wife and a mother, and I definitely know that I will not feel complete until I am. Just like my mother, I know I was meant to take care of someone(s). Hopefully one day, I will be able to do just that.

what if?

I just finished watching the movie Letters to Juliet. The beginning, in my opinion, is somewhat rocky. However if you continue to watch it, it will definitely become a tear jerker! If you've seen this movie, then you'll follow where I'm going with this quote.



"What and If are two words as non-threatening as words can be. But put them together side-by-side and they have the power to haunt you for the rest of your life: What if? What if? What if? "

All of a sudden I'm asking myself the question "what if?" in reference to J. All along we've been friends yet all along I've wanted to be with him. I've never expressed my feelings towards him to him. So now my question is this, what if? What if I were to tell J how I really feel? With me being a hopeless romantic I want to say that he'll have the biggest smile on his face in the world and tell me he's wanted to tell me the same all along. However, realistically I can only see him and our friendship grow distant and isolated. What if I never told him? Is it possible that what could have been could never be? Do I really want to take the chance on risking everything?

I've talked to a select few about the situation yet everyone says the same thing, tell him. Why can it not be that easy? I'm in a complete battle with myself. Do I risk losing a friendship because he doesn't feel the same? Would I rather keep him as my friend because I rather cherish having him in my life then not having him at all? Do I keep quiet, continue to be just a friend, and always have that constant reminder of what will never be? Honestly, if I were to tell him how I felt only to find out the he doesn't feel the same I don't know if I could still be his friend. I think the sharp end of the knife would cut too deep and too fast for me to ever be able to communicate with him the same. Yet what if he's fighting in the same battle? What if he feels for me yet is too nervous to say anything? J is a pretty shy guy when it comes to stuff like this.

I've shed so many tears over this whole matter that I should probably buy stock in some Puffs Plus. I don't want to battle this anymore. My patience is wearing thin. I just want him to confess his love for me tell me how he really feels or at least show some sort of clear (like, windexed windows clear) sign of whether or not he's at least into me.

Relationships are never easy. Friendships, romance, and even family... none of them come easy. However, this time I really wish God would lay out a blue print for me and help a clueless, hopeless romantic girl out.

Let's pull out some Dr. Phil, let me know what you think I should do. Right now I could use any type of advice.

Hope everyone had a fabulous friday!

football fun

Hooray! Pictures from this weekends Titans games.. oh ya know the one where the Tennessee Titans decided to beat some Oakland Raiders ass! Heck yes. That one :)

Anyways, we (J and I) decided to tailgate with a party of two, him and I, before the game. Two hours later we left the parking lot and went inside the stadium to cheer on our team.


Meet J. Has anybody put two and two together that this is the first ever reveal of J? If you don't know much about J, read back to previous posts. Simply put: We've been friends since high school, and well, I'm crazy about him. (and he doesn't even know it).


J & I. You'll have to excuse our sweatiness. It was an absolute scorcher out!


L & I. L is my partner in crime when it comes to the games. Considering we sit in a male infested zone, we help each other survive the testosterone overload. However, we're always defeated. :)


I absolutely love this picture. It's basically the definition of our friendship. :)


Okay, so let's take it back high school style shall we? This picture excites me just for the fact that later, after the game, I actually did get a kiss. ::SQUEALS WITH EXCITEMENT!:: We're just that nerdy ;)

I've been to tons of football games over the years. Whether they be professional, college, or high school level... I've been to more then I can count. However, I have never had as much fun at a game as I did with J on Sunday. I really can't even explain it.

I just hope I can have a repeat again this weekend. :)

postie time, baby!

The death of...

my old satellite, could not be any sweeter!

I swear I didn't die! However, my internet did! We had a little tiff with the satellite company because unlike most people we don't get the luxery off DSL living out in the boonies and all. However, a different just launched a new satellite and what not so now my internet is faster, thus meaning faster, easier, MORE POSTS! And all along I thought it was my computer... shame, shame.

Anyways a lot has been going on, as always lol. J and I went to the Titans game this past Sunday against the Raiders... you know I was struttin' my blue & red when we laid that ass whoopin down! Anyways, I have pictures and what not to share but for now I'm just going to make a quick, hehe because I now can, post so that way I'm not draggin in the morning when I have to get up super early!

I miss you all, hopefully this time around I'm back... FOR GOOD!

PS. Summer- I've never stopped praying sweet girl!