Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Bringing sexy back.

So as I posted previously, vie been trying to lose weight. I've done pretty good being that I'm 15lbs down. However, a Memorial Day weekend canoe trip is coming up and even though I'm excited as all get out to have a vacation, I'm not so thrilled about wearing a bikini. Though Honey reassures me that I look "great", I'm still not comfortable in my skin yet. I still want to lose about 30lbs or more.

I don't want to look like this while canoeing. Not fucking cute at all. Though I'm no where close to being her size, I feel like I still have rolls where they're not suppose to be. Granted, I am fully aware that for my 5'3" frame God has gifted me with thick thighs and a large ass. Honey loves it, much like most men, so I'm not so worried about that. But I am worried about the love handles that still linger right about that ass and the beer belly that's chilling as well.

I could, however, totally go for a bod like this. ha, in my dreams. So unrealistic. Maybe with some lipo though... Whatever I have a week and a half before the trip, theres no way its gonna happen. So here I am still putting off buying a swimsuit because none of my others fit, yet I still don't want to face my fluff in the dressing room mirror.

In all honesty, unless Honey's on top of me and humping, I don't even like being naked in front of him nor even in panties and bra. How the fuck am I suppose to get in front of a bunch of the guys he works with in a bikini and be confident and hot? I have lingerie yet rarely use it because let's be super honest here, fat girls in skimpy lace and silk isn't as sexy as what he sees in his Playboy's and Maxim's. But that's a story of it's own. Maybe I'll be like Justin Timberlake, but with a vag of course, and bring sexy back. In a larger form, that is.

both images found via google


  1. I think you're being so hard on yourself. Women are their own worse critic. The only person disapproving of you in that bikini is you. I promise you! I may not know a lot in life, but I know that men do appreciate a woman's body, and fuck those who don't...I don't mean fuck them literally...well, you get it! Now go find a bikini that makes you feel 'contained' 'cause you're going to be in a canoe after all, you don't want boobs spilling out all over the place, and go have fun!

  2. Hi Haley! I just discovered your blog and I'm really glad I did. And speaking of the topic here, you just gotta find a swim suit that you feel comfortable in and own it! After all, the person makes the clothes not the other way around:) And don't forget to have fun, that's the most important part in this! I am now following you thanks to Follow Me Back Tuesday blog hop, and it would be so nice if you could share the love back on my blog;)
    Also don't forget to tune in today, because we have a special guest with us and it comes along with lots of presents and surprises for everybody! So don't miss it out. See you there!
    Happy Wednesday

  3. I struggle with this every.single.day and it totally sucks so I feel your pain! But... with that being said - find a suit you love and are comfortable in and go have a great time! I've gotten to where I now where the "surfer board shorts" and a bikini top and feel much better than trying to wear actual bikini bottoms. Just a thought! Have a great time and I look forward to the pictures! :)

  4. Being comfortable in your own skin is hard. Very hard! I worked out 6 days a week before I got pregnant. I was going to figure compete. Everyone told me I should. Still, I never felt comfortable. I always say I could be 115lbs or 145lbs and I would feel the same. Now that im pregnant and have gained a little bit of weight and stopped working out, boy do I think back to the days when my body was better. I guess what im saying is appreciate the body God gave you. Looking at your pictures you are beautiful and seem really sweet and in the end thats what will win you over. That trip sounds like fun!!!

  5. Bring it girl!!!

    Okay....so tell me how you're doing it? I wouldn't mind dropping just a few lbs before summer. But my willpower is CRAP!

    Did I mention I love you for ditching the word verification? Boobie hugs for youuuu!

  6. Hello there! =)

    I'm following from the Blog Hop.

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