a road to crisis vs. change

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Exactly a year ago from today marks the day my whole life changed. A ray of sunshine peeked through my clouds, I came to several realizations, my road took a turn. Now you may be wondering what is up with the picture right above the text, I've never gone into full out detail about a major part of my life...some call it an illness, some call it a disorder, some call it a disease. Call it what you will. I suffer from have depression. I was diagnosed my freshman year with clinical depression and seasonal depression and was borderline major and bipolar. Last year at this time I was in my lowest of low. Hence "seasonal" depression, I was with the majority of being depressed during winter time unlike the minority being summer. I had gone as far as making phone calls to inpatient treatment facilities and making plans as to when I should go and who was taking me. I basically had everything mapped out. I was planning to go for a month or so, clear my head, get a lot of my chest, figure out who I am and where I'm going. Some may refer to it as the "looney-bin" I assure you, its nothing of the sort. Unless you're in the critical unit, you're not going to be seeing any straight jackets. They offer therapists and help you figure things out so on, so forth. Bottom line, I knew I needed help. I held off for a few days after making my plans, actually a few weeks due to work related instances where I knew I couldn't just disappear.

Within those weeks I had made a decision. A decision that would change my life forever.

That decision? Will be revealed Monday December 5th.