The decision

If you have not read yesterday's post, I suggest you go do that now before you get lost and confused as to what the heck is going on.

As previously noted, I made a decision. One that we will get to. Seeing that I was going to be going away for a month due to an overload of stress, my mothers and my relationship completely taking a turn for the worse, almost being kicked out of my house, weeks filled with suicidal thoughts... I knew I needed to get things sorted out. After going through my list of assortments I finally came down to the dating website. It was time for me to delete my account, it was obvious that I had not and would not meet my Prince Charming...it was apparent that he had been hit by a bus. Right before I deleted my account I stumbled upon the one profile that had continuously popped up on my "top matches". A profile that I gritted my teeth at because I already had the idea that it wasn't Him. I was bored, I decided to check the profile out, oh my God, enter life change.

(you can read more about this here)

I sent him a message, we chatted it up, changed numbers, I thought he was just going to be another failure. Through the text messages he seemed like he would be my type, I even got the weird butterfly feeling in my stomach...one I couldn't explain.

A friend and I were suppose to go to a Titan's game the following weekend (Sunday) and Saturday she told me she couldn't go and that I should take Boy. Hesitant I text another friend to get reassurance that this is what I should do followed by a text to Boy asking him to go. At first he said he couldn't because he had to go to his little cousins birthday party (major let down) and then before I could text back he sent another text saying "My roommate said I was gay if I didn't go, so I guess I'll be meeting you tomorrow". The hours leading up I was nervous as HELL! More nervous than I had ever been on any other date, including the ones from the website that failed miserably. I picked him up from his house because I didn't want him to know where I lived. He gets in the car and my word! He's bald!! Instant turn on. (don't ask...) We chatted the whole hour drive back and forth from the game. Had our first kiss at the game. One that left me lightheaded and a little uneasy.

After leaving his house and getting in my car it hit my like a ton of bricks. I'm going to marry that man one day. He was going to be mine and I knew it. My plans completely changed. I was on an adventure that I didn't want to end, and to this day I'm still on that adventure. That boy with the mysterious profile that continued to pop up was Honey. I knew I would love him then, I never knew just how much.

A year ago from today I met my soulmate. I met the man that changed my world, changed my views on life, changed my plans, changed the way I love. I never knew I could love someone so much. Though we're not engaged nor married we have often talked about it. It's just about timing just like meeting him was.

This week will be filled with all of the goodness that surrounded us finding each other.

Stay tuned...;)