Music Monday!

Post a song(s) that you are most recently obsessed with. Feel free to post lyrics, how you came by the song, what it pertains to according to your life, etc. 
So I didn’t participate in music Monday last week, but I’m back for more action this week!! My song choice isn’t exactly a “new” song, but it’s a song that I always find myself turning to. Due to a recent breakup, sometimes I get down and out. Though I no longer want to be with this guy, he seems to still feel the need to try to damage my self esteem and credibility on other media outlets, ie. Facebook and myspace. So anyways. This is my choice this week. Enjoy enjoy!
needless to say, I find Butch Walker to be one hell of a sexy man!
"Best Thing You Never Had"

Hello how you doing?
What's it like to ruin all my self esteem
Let me blow off some steam
For 5 years I've waited,
So why am I jaded to get back at you
What makes it cool

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

And it seems like a loss somehow
My heart got lost on the way to my head
And my brain cells are dead
And the craziness shows
Now I start to go when the green turns to red
And I should be dead

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad
But I can't like someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
While my heart got shattered like romantic roadkill
My heart is all splattered your ego got fatter
And I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
The best thing that you never had

Like the toilet seat never got lifted
And I pissed on your confidence
When you weren't around, how can that be?
Don't turn this around
You were the one
Who drove my ass right to the ground

When you act like nothing ever happened
I feel like I should feel bad, and I can't like

Someone who thought
They're the only one that mattered
While my heart got shattered like romantic roadkill
My heart is all splattered your ego got fatter
And I hope that you're flattered
Cause you broke this down
You broke this down
The best thing, the best thing,
The best thing that you never had

You never had...

Though when the break-up initially took place, I was absolutely heart broken. I couldn’t even talk about it without balling my eyes out. *read labels:Jonathan* After sitting back and thinking about everything in detail, I realize our relationship was not what it was all cracked up to be. Just like in the song, my heart got lost on the way to my head. He thought he was the only one that mattered. My feelings and my heart was never of his concern and it really was “all about him”. Now he is slandering my name on media outlets because he see’s now that I’m not sticking around for his bullshit. He knows that I’m picking up my pieces and moving on and that he doesn’t matter like he thought he did, and it’s killing him. He even posted a status stating, “out with the bad, in with the good, fuck what she said”. After talking to him about this rather foolish inquiry he told me that he said it because I was acting like I wasn’t going to be friends with him anymore and that when I told him I still wanted to be friends with him that I was lying. Truth: we aren’t together anymore, so no… I’m not going to break my neck to hang out with him. I’m not going to text and call him like I’m still his girlfriend. I’m not going to give him every second of my day. And yes, that kills him. He hates it, but HE’S the one moving away, not me. After all was said and done, I realize now that he is nothing more than an immature coward. I’m not saying this out of hostility either, I’m saying this because he thinks he can run away from all his problems and everything will be okay. If he were a real man he would stand up to his problems and fix them, not run away.
So anyways, with all this being said, this is my choice. I am going to burn away the memories of him and I. I am going to rid of the negative thoughts. Because in the end, I know I was the best thing that he never truly had.